I really wanted to escape to reality.

Acid. I guess I want this to be whatever you interpret it as. I waited a long time to do acid because I couldn't really think of a comfortable situation, environment or person I would want to do it with.

Finally I found a great friend and a great place. I took 4 hits which was probably too much. I think the first problem with acid id thinking its slow effects means it will not effect you at all. But it does and you have to be patient and wait for it, this is not cocaine, there is no instant gratification. The gratification is long and worth your patience.

The first time I actually realized the drug was taking effect, or had any realization at all. Was when I was laying on my friends floor. I felt like I wanted to tell him all the great things happening to me, I wanted to share how the walls were moving and the vivid colors, but he knew everything I was going through. Complete non stop laughter for a few hours.

I was so comfortable with the trip but after awhile it got ridiculous and I really wanted to escape to reality. I wanted so bad to just be placed in a situation that would let me know things weren’t real and that I was going to eventually just be ok. I wasn't really ready to give my mind up and insane paranoia took over. I threw up excessively from taking way too much.

My friend tried to help me and he did, he made me realize that eventually I would be ok. But the walls were still turning colors and I was dizzy and I felt like better was so far away.

I guess acid makes you really appreciate everything so much more when you're finally out of it. Its so weird because your just living in what seems to be a dream. Then you get tired and if your high you can fall asleep and let nature take over, but when your tripping you cant escape. You have to give yourself up completely, mentally and physically.

All in all. After feeling like I controlled color and watching the beautiful world unfold, I would not take it back. But I don't think I'm going on a trip for a very long time.