As a sexual molestation victim, I want to say to others in my situation--do seek help

Ok so I've visited this site many of times. What I now share is intended only for a mature audience. I've read a story here about a girl getting raped who stated that she hoped to reach out to another rape victim. Well, I'm not a rape victim but I am of something almost equally bad, a molestation victim.

Now, here's the story. I am female. The molester also, is female. I was only a kid, not knowing what was happening. The thing is, I'm 17 now and it took me this long to come out about it to my closest friends. My family was not of any help. So, I took it upon myself to seek professional help.

Witnesses? The girl's sister (my ex best friend) knew about it. She did nothing. The details are graphic and none that really shall be listed on this or any other website. I just want to say that it was bad and it was multiple times.

Like the story of the girl getting raped, I do have nightmares, I do cry for no reason. Also, I find myself flipping out on people for no apparent reason. I go through stages of anger. I suffer severely from post-traumatic stress disorder. I've been through stages of addiction to drugs because of this. Between that haunting me daily and other problems I basically had a rough life and still do.

I just want to say that basically, no matter what the situation of rape or molestation, do tell someone about it. Keeping it bottled up inside as long as I did only made things worse. As of this day even as a college freshman, if someone even hugs me at the wrong time, I flip out. If you’re in a situation of abuse like this, find someone you trust to talk to about it. Professional help for most people really does help. Male or female, raped or molested, do seek help and do speak out about your situation. Drugs do not make the situation better. If your family does not help you, screw them and move on.

Update on the girl: I know where her parents live and I know any day I can run into her at the store. It haunts me cuz everyday (she used to live in same neighborhood) I see the house where it all happened. I want to just tear it down.

I'm happy to say that I am trying my best effort to not forget but to just put the situation aside. Even though I was molested by a lesbian, I am against discrimination against race and sexual preference. I just want to say that if she happens to read this I want her to read this message:

Thank you for making me a stronger person that you ever will be, I hope this haunts you more than it haunts me, and also how does it feel to take away someone’s innocent childhood?